so i heard this story yesterday

ok first of all...i have gotten bored with blogging:( i feel like i have no vision for it...ya know, what i mean?) ok im really not trying to "over-spiritualize" this but "for lack of vision the people perish" (somewhere in the bible (insert number here):(insert number here)...so for lack of vision the blog perishes..(or at least it has the past couple of weeks) but I'm BACK tonight...so enjoy it while you can!


I have loved the past couple of days in class. Graham Walsh and his wife, Sabrina have been teaching on deliverance, healing, and prophecy. sooo good. Yesterday Graham was teaching specifically on fears people have concerning deliverance and why many in the body are afraid to move in it (i.e. fear of getting slimed, fear of demons, fear of demon intimidating you, fear of demon jumping on you..etc. etc.). However, he has been discussing how necessary and urgent it is for the whole entire body of christ to begin exercising their authority in this...jesus commands us too. One of the main reasons that the body of Christ remains crippled is because we have no clue how to war or how to rebuke demons. And im not talking about screaming and yelling like a crazy charismatic (with all do respect i am a crazy charismatic) but taking our places as sons and daughters of God and as the bride of Christ and destroying the powers of darkness of our lives and over others lives.

so i thought i would leave you with a story...and i LOVE this story. it makes me want to scale a wall and dive off a mountain. Don't you love that feeling? well, hopefully it will make you feel that way and also give you confidence in who you are as God's chosen...(you will love God for this):

Graham had a dream one night. In the dream Satan approached him, looked him up and down, laughed and to intimidate him, said, "Graham Walsh, you don't scare me!!" Then Satan looked over Graham's left shoulder and saw Jesus. Next he looked over his right shoulder and saw the Holy Spirit. Then he looked on top of Graham's head and saw God the Father. Then Satan looked behind Graham, off in the distance, and saw a great multitude of Angels. To one side of the angels were the saints that had gone on before...on the opposite side were all the martyrs that had died for the name of Jesus. Behind them were all the different heavenly hosts and heavenly creatures. At the sight of this company Satan ran from Graham in fear.

I love thinking in these terms...that we really belong to a holy city. That we really are going to live with this beautiful company one day...and even now all of heaven is behind us..routing for us.. it's like a family. i can't wait to hug ruth. is that weird? not for any particular reason...first of all, i know it wont be weird to hug anyone in the next age.. we will get to hug all the bible characters!..they are real people! crazy...and also because it's ruth. i bet she will be nice. she was nice to naomi. i dont wanna hug deborah as much. she was a little bit fiercer. i mean i like her....but she was fierce( i know tha's Godly and Jesus is fierce too)..but im thinking when the saints come down with Jesus and He is killing people I'm gonna wanna hug someone more with that mothering on her ya know? yeah....

revealed

I love it when God changes my mind and my heart...i love it i love it i love it i love it. I love when He shines light on dark places in my heart.

So i never thought it really worked before ( i know, i know... I have so little faith and i'm horribly self righteous) but recently when the enemy has come to accuse my heart and begins to steal from me, shame me, and condemn me I quote scripture and beleive in its power. And guess what?! It really works...who would have thought, right?..I mean...it's just the word of God (I hope you picked up on the sarcasm in that last statement). His words are void and fall to the ground, but the words of Jesus are sharp and do not return void. His words are true. If He calls you beautiful it is not just an opinion...He's the creator of beauty..He determines what is beautiful. It's true. Dont you love Jesus for that? What He thinks of us is real and true. LALALALALA!!! <-that is me singing.

I was also thinking today about how excited I am to meet myself. Have you ever thought about that? Like who we are is yet to be known. In this age we are fighting and wrestling to really discover who we are and understand where our identity really lies. I was thinking about when I was younger and the pain of not knowing myself, not understanding myself, and hating all of my insecurities in my own skin. I had no clue who I was. Now that I am learning to walk and yoke myself to Jesus, the more I begin to see jesus redeeming me, and I am slowly (but surely) learning to love myself, understand myself, and love the way that He made me. The more I see of Him the more I see of my own identity..because He created me..He formed me..and He dreamed me into exsistence. I love that He had this dream in mind, and one day when He apears I will see Him and I will be like Him...and then I just imagine myself in the age to come..in the millenial kingdom. Im going to be shining so brightly, I am going to be smiling so big, I am going to be fully alive, I am going to be fully loved, I am going to be fully known. the veil is going to be lifted off my eyes and I am going to see myself as I really am.

well, the first thing I am going to do in the next age (after I tear through the crowds to get to Jesus, then hug Him and squeeze him, pour out my heart and soul, and push mary of bethany over to the side so i can wipe his feet with MY hair and never let Him go...ok I guess i'll let Him go so other people can get a turn) after all that I am going to look in a mirror (maybe like another seas of glass or something on the earth!), examine myself, and actually discover the dream of His heart in forming me..what was He really thinking when He knitted me in the secret place? What was really on His heart when He was rejoicing with His father over my exsistence? I am going to admire every way he made me...every arena of my character, my personality, my heart, my face, my body... I am going to love it. I can't wait to meet Jesus' Emily.

Jesus makes my heart soar.

⁹You have captivated my heart, my sister, my bride;
you have captivated my heart with one glance of your eyes,
with one jewel of your necklace.
¹⁰How beautiful is your love, my sister, my bride!
How much better is your love than wine,
and the fragrance of your oils than any spice!
¹¹Your lips drip nectar, my bride;
honey and milk are under your tongue;
the fragrance of your garments is like the fragrance of Lebanon.
¹²A garden locked is my sister, my bride,
a spring locked, a fountain sealed.
¹³Your shoots are an orchard of pomegranates
with all choicest fruits,
henna with nard,
¹⁴nard and saffron, calamus and cinnamon,
with all trees of frankincense,
myrrh and aloes,
with all choice spices—
¹⁵a garden fountain, a well of living water,
and flowing streams from Lebanon.

¹⁶Awake, O north wind,
and come, O south wind!
Blow upon my garden,
let its spices flow.

pots.

A spent a lot of time today at David and Barb Hoggatt's pottery store. I went there with my friend Sandi just to check out the place. David and Barb moved to Kansas City 2.5 years ago to be apart of the house of prayer here and to open up a pottery shop...not just to sell pottery, but to create a place for the broken-hearted to come find healing and rest.
Dave showed me around the shop ( i am starting classes in march! can't wait to learn how to throw pots!)...then somehow I ended up staying for 3 hours! I cut out clay hearts (like the two you see above) and smoothed them out.
There is an open heaven over the store...I just kept feeling like I was living in Psalm 23...feeding on green grass and drinking from streams of living water...it was so peaceful. Dave has a real father's heart. He went over to this little container and picked up a heart. He walked over to me, grabbed my hand, and began to prophecy to me about the word on the heart and why it was significant to me. The word was "cure."

..He wasn't done..He walked into the back and picked up another heart. He came over to me once again. He placed the heart in my hand. On one side the word "Life" was written in English and on the other side "Life" was written in Chinese. He held my hand once again and prophesied over me...

I was blessed.

val.en.tine (noun)- a chosen sweetheart

Happy Valentine's Day!!

I have two Valentine's today...:)

jesus & john.













YAY for the day of LOVE!!!!:):) I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentine's Day and that Jesus sends Valentine's to each of our hearts!

I have to say, this was a fun day for me...I am in Kansas City and 800 miles away from John:( but I thought I would go back to my elementary days and make him a Valentine's Day card!!:)

I made it before I left and I think it was one of my favorite days of all time...I wish i was still 5 sometimes. you are never too old to make a card out of construction paper. I promise.

I thought I would show you the finished product..

these are two of them..unfortunately I wasn't able to upload the other ones because the files were too big..but you get the picture:)

i'm ill..pray for me.:(

i thought my allergies were acting up so I bought Claritin D, bought Afrin and Saline spray.

then I thought it was a cold...so I got on airborne, bought Zicam, and a multivitamin (I don't know why I bought a multivitamin..I just thought I should probably take them so i wouldn't get sicker?)

I wasn't getting any better...really just getting worse..

so tooodddayyy i looked up symptoms for sinus infections..

yep. that's it.

now I have to go to the Doctor :(

claritin D + Afrin+ saline spray +airborne + zicam + a multivitamin? = waste of money.

really.

I was in the prayer room tonight.

I read the story about Jesus eating at the house of a prominent pharisee. The "sinful" woman comes in weeping and washing His feet with her tears.

The pharisee was religiously offended at the woman.

but...

Jesus receives her. He goes one step further..He DEFENDS her...in front of EVERYONE.


Jesus, who are you? really.


so i think He is serious about those that belong to Him..JEALOUSLY..FURIOUSLY serious....

He is coming back at the end of the age and He is going to slaughter everyone that messed with His bride...and that's that.

wellll...

I have encountered a weakness once again. So, do you remember how I had this exciting goal of taking a picture everyday while I am here?

yeah. scratch that.

I forgot to yesterday. the whole thing is off. the whole thing is ruined.

Okay maybe that was a little dramatic. I'm really not that upset about it for a couple reasons:

1. i don't like taking my camera with me everywhere I go.
a. because it is too cold outside to leave it in the car.
b. I hate hauling that huge thing around everyday

2. no one wants to see three months of the house that I'm living in.
a. how many interesting pictures can I take of a cat?
b. pictures of coffee mugs from all different angles just isn't that cool anymore
c. taking multiple pictures of myself in front of a mirror take me back to my myspace days...and no one wants to go back there. ever.

so there ya have it. I will try to post pictures...just not every day.

Emily Stone